not much new..just working and all that...I fasted for the last two days, and I was down to 195 yesterday, but then when I weighed myself this morning I was at 200 again and I literally cried for like twenty minutes. ughhh. Just water weight, I suppose? But still, it freaks me out and scares me. I am so embarrassed by myself. I let myself go so bad. I have been with my bf for two years, and I got super depressed last spring and I would just eat whenever he ate, and now its like I'm a fucking parade float.
Not to mention all of these super thin girls hit on him all the time. He is so sweet tho, he doesn't even pay attention to them, and I know that he loves me, and I trust him completely, but last night he told me that one of them said he could do so much better than me. I seriously saw red and wanted blood, but also I feel super depressed by it. I know that I'm fat as shit, but I'm not terrible looking in the head. ughhhh. I seriously just want to punch this stupid girl in the face, but she lives like three states away. WTF. I hate catty bitches. I am going to think about that today while I'm running hah. I will be thin again dammit!!!!
Hey,
ReplyDeleteYou are right. You shouldn't let it get to you (but it's hard not to). And i wouldn't worry about girls like that one because it's obvious that she is jealous of what you have and that she isn't so happy herself. I'd rather have a pretty face than be a but-her-face any day for sure;)
one thing i can suggest that really helps me is after you wake up (whenever that may be) drink a carnation breakfast drink that comes in a bottle (the ones with no added sugar). they are only 150 cal and are very satisfying and keep my hunger away for half the day. also it will get your metabolism going for the rest of the day and your body won't go into starvation mode so easily. same with bananas! good luck with everything! if you are like me then a positive outlook helps the most with this kind of thing because i tend to eat my feelings.