I was so caught up in just being depressed that I didn't want to write anything at all. I recently saw a home video of myself and looking at it...I just realized that I lost my spark. I turned into someone I don't know, and I can't figure out what happened that made me change so much. I am so insecure..unhappy...unsure of myself. I used to have fun, and be silly, but I just don't do any of that anymore. I am trying to be perfect and it is making me hate every second I'm not..Just working towards this unachievable goal. Endlessly.
The funny part is, I really do think if I get to my gw, I really will be happy. I'll get my spark back.
The funny part is, I really do think if I get to my gw, I really will be happy. I'll get my spark back.
OxOx~STAY STRONG~xOxO
I can totally relate to you. It feels like the journey to reaching a goal weight is so hard and it really does take a toll on your mental health. I wish there was an easy way to get there without becoming depressed or tired all the time. Btw what kind of diet are you on?
ReplyDeleteUsually I just try to stay under 800Kcal, but as I gained a buttload of weight over the winter, I am doing Atkins. I absolutely hate it, because I have to force myself to eat eggs and meat only, which are both things I usually don't. It really does work though, for burning off fat quickly. What about you? :)
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